Callooh! Callay!

This picture no longer makes me ill!

I haven't posted my positives since Thursday. Know why? Because I have been too busy getting to work. Know why? Because the sickness has all but vanished. ALL BUT VANISHED!

And that was so positive I didn't have time to post about it; I was too busy praying prayers of thanksgiving/cleaning/talking to my husband/playing with my kid. All things I--seriously--haven't done in four months.

I don't know if this is a permanent condition, but I will take it for as long as it lasts. I feel like myself again. (And since I can't feel the baby kick or move yet, I keep forgetting I am even with child. Which is a surprisingly awesome feeling. I mean sure, My Sharona still hurts like I have been kicked by a mule, but that is not going to last forever.)

Yesterday at church, I was reflecting on how great it was to feel great. And I was wondering if it was just the complete absence of feeling great that made the presence so noticeable, or if it was something more. And then the words to this song popped into my head:

I am happy today for the sunshine
For the sky of gray and blue
For within my heart is the song I love:
I'll live; I'll work; I'll do!

(I don't know if those are the exact lyrics. But those are what I always sing. So that's what counts.)

And I got one of those pure inspiration moments--it is not enough to just feel well, I was so joyous because, for the first time in four months, I was able to live, work, and do. And I need that in my life. I used to always think that it would be great to just sit, like Gilbert Grape's mother, all day. But after living that way for so long, I realize that it is nice for a day, maybe, but not what I need in my life for thriving. I am still having to work out the kinks--I get really tired, and over-tired=nausea. But I will figure all that out soon, I am sure.

And so that is my focus this week--living, working, and doing. Want to join me?

Positively Happy Wednesday is Over.

Yesterday was hard to think about in a positive fashion. But here you go:

1. I talked to one of my favorite people in the world, our bishop's wife. She is rad. And she told me that when she was on Zofran for her chemo it made her really, really, high, just like me. This is positive on two fronts: I am on Zofran because of pregnancy, not cancer; I can now picture the bishop's wife stoned.

2. W got home really late, but just in time to clean up the dog vomit, which saved us from having to burn down the house or move. (Dog vomit is my mouse in the laundry room.)

3. I got to whine to ~J. She always lets me whine and interrupt and then her kids say something really funny or loud and I feel better.

4. Planner told me to clean the toilets, and I didn't. But this was okay, because I only had to see the filthy toilets up close in my face ONE time! (This is a major positive.)

5. W has some soldiers that are making his life miserable. But that allowed me to make the following segue: "Speaking of soldiers screwing things (up), the President is going to ask Congress to repeal "Don't Ask, Don't Tell!" ZING! You can't buy that kind of set-up, folks.

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For Shar:
This is how I made yogurt:
I bought this yogurt maker.
I put milk and base in it.
I let it cook overnight.
I ate yogurt with jam and fruit and granola.

Five Successes for Tuesday

I was feeling un-word-able last night, so here are the five positive things from yesterday:

1. I did not get an H1N1 shot. This was a conscious decision based on the following facts: I hate getting shots; I have never had a flu shot in my life, and have also never had the flu in my life; W got the shot already and it made him really sick; Jooj stays home all day and doesn't go to school; we wash our hands all the time; they are remodeling the parking lot at the hospital and it takes, on average 45 minutes to get a parking spot--freals. So I weighed all of these factors in, and blew off the flu shot. I feel very positive about it.

2. I ran errands yesterday, including depositing checks I have been carrying around for over a month. Not because I'm so rich I don't need the money, but because going to the bank has been out of my league. (Also because I kissed a boy behind the trampoline.)

3. I made dinner--one of my favorites--tuna quesadillas. They make this Starkist flavored tuna in the zippy pouches. Get the hickory smoked flavor, spread cream cheese and chives on a tortilla, top with tuna and cheese, grill up. We love them. And the chives count as a vegetable. Of sorts. That neither Jooj nor I eat, but still. POSITIVE. AND I made yogurt. Which I had for breakfast this morning.

4. Speaking of dinners, I have been sticking to my eating from the pantry/freezer goal almost perfectly (there have been some immense cravings, but I have only really bought a few things I hadn't planned on. Mostly Rocky Road.) I have spent almost nothing on groceries this month. Awesome. Super positive.

5. I had some deep thoughts. This is huge. I haven't thought deeply about anything in a long time. I don't really remember what they were, and I don't think I made any decisions about them, but they existed. Glory be.